“AFTERTASTE”

Hey loves! I know I haven’t posted in a long time and I think I needed to have this for myself because “Blood” was extremely hard to write, and extremely difficult to share. ❤ But that’s done now and in the past month I have written so much that I am proud of, and I hope so much that you like it 🙂 


To brighten the mood, this is my newest poem.

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“AFTERTASTE”

All I remember from the first time we met
is the summer heat
The tulips in April, shined
as the sun creeped in
I said ‘hello’, having no
idea who you were going to turn out to be

Now you’re on my mind
like the aftertaste of coffee

And I was, falling before the ball dropped
I was breaking down doors that you knocked on
It went from all we were
to all we used to be

‘Cause now it’s just you and me

And in the beat of this heart
I found a poem for you
Baby I’m not going to lie
That was the moment I knew

that I was falling in love with you.

Oh, it’s true
I knew
it was true…

I’ve fallen in love,
with you.

 

“THE CIRCUS”

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My baby, he took a fall
Walked right on up
to the tight rope of
their lies

And maybe it’s new for you
But I’ve lived in this circus
for my whole life

I’ve danced on glass,
Have been cut in half,
Burnt my tongue trying to speak up, but

The look in your eyes
pulled me back to the light,
So when you’re taking the fall
you know exactly who to call

And I’d be right there!

I promise you,
After the fight dies down
and we’ve figured it out;
We’ll take this show, to the road

With a bunch of magic tricks,
the acrobats glide, fireworks in the sky,
and the archers
never miss.

Trust me, right now its the same old shit on a different day
but my baby and I,

We’ll stay.


Wrote this in literally 10-15 minutes when I was feeling a lot of feelings :p Hope you like! ❤

“Home To Me”

So recently one of my closest people lost someone they loved a lot. This is for my best friend.


 

Dark room, smell of nothingness
The cold wind touches your face, the same way that love had once done

You’ve seen your light fade,
Slowly
Take a deep breath
You can break down
Oh, you won’t regret
it.

Everything you gave your heart to
left you broken on the side of the pavement
that you painted
with the colour of your love
And everything you had
is coming to its end;

But don’t you give up
don’t look down
not for a second, because

You have still got me
Right by your side
So when you’ve said your goodbyes
Baby, come home to me.

And when the sky is falling down
I’ll be your only cloud-
No promises of a perfect tomorrow-
But I’ll be holding you
safe from the sorrow

So baby, come home to me!

In the dead of the night,
Or when the stars start to shine,
Or when you can’t walk anymore,

Will you run home to me?

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“TO THEM AND TO YOU”

My love will not be an apology:

-I-

It stands tall in the midst of your clenched teeth,
your hissing, snickering laughter
Thought I’d come after
your tantrums about how bad I am treating you.
How selfish,
As I wished
to die so you could live.

If stopping you means locking myself in your cage
I am ready.
To tame the hyena, all I need is a lion heart.
Even if it tears me apart,
I will not let you devour my love.

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My love, this is not what we’re meant to be.

I will not fall for the games they try to play
I will find a way
for both of us to stay!
Just stay with me.

My love, my very best friend
If this were made to end
It would have fallen apart months ago.
I prayed to God to turn me cold
if this,
if this was made to end.

But me, I am as warm as the midsummer day
when I first learnt how you smell
as warm
as the safety of my palm, beneath your face
When you fell asleep in class

No, honey, this was made to last!
All the way to kingdom come.

I will build anew, 
I will not apologise for loving you.


Hey everyone. Depression is hard these days because circumstances. But I am holding on. I hope you all do too ❤
P.S. you are all welcome to read more of “The Purge Series”, here.

“We do.”

The more I try to run away, the more I spiral down
Treading on eggshells in the very city
where they took away my crown
I’m still unafraid, still terrified
Still clinging on to hope
Sometimes I’m pushed to wonder why
I couldn’t let it go
Why does this spirit never tire
of losing every battle it fights?
The victory comes slow, in small doses
Sometimes only once in a war.

What is the point of carrying your head high,
When there is no body left to hold it?
A dignified corpse;
A walking lost cause-
I am all the things I swore I never was.

And you return cold as ice, from the house they are burning down
The one we had built in a century:
In a single moment of complete and utter truth.

But they broke the windows with boulders made of hopelessness
Catapulting in like grenades;
And they took away our smiles
With the raging burning fire!
So now, we are left standing by.
We wonder how it turned you cold
While I got buried in its ashes.

They are stronger than us, I know
The monsters always are, that’s why we call them monsters.
But you and I, we have more power as one,
Than a thousand lost homes.
Or at least I hope we do.
Because God knows we have tried not to love each other.
But God knows,
We do.

Artist: Stoian Hitrov