“WUJOOD AUR ZAAT”

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Wujood ko tou sirf mohabbat karna ata hai. Ishq? Ishq tou zaat karti hai. Isi liye jab rooh Khuda ke paas jaye, tou wujood ko dunya mai chor ke jati hai. Kyunke wujood dunya ka hissa hai, yaheen bheja gaya, yaheen kaam aya aur yaheen mitti mai mil gaya. Hisab tou zaat ka hoga. Aur yoon, jo wujood ki chahaton ka ghulam hua, samjho wo nakaam thehra. Aur jis ne zaat paa li, usne ishq kiya. Aur yehi ishq usay Khuda ki mohabbat ka haqdaar bana deta hai.

Ye theek hai ke Khuda ke ilawa kisi se ishq nahi kiya ja sakta, lekin ye bhi sach hai ke agar insan dunya ki mohabbat Khuda ke ishq ke wajib karda usoolon aur aqaid se chaanne ya guzaarne ke baad kare; tou beshak Khuda us mohabbat ko bhi ishq jesa mazboot bana deta hai, aur ishq jesa sukun bakhsh. Gharz ye ke jab jab tumhe izterab mehsoos ho, tou samjho sirf mohabbat hai. Aur jab jab sukun milay, tou samajh jao ke ishq hai. Aur agar usay kho dene ka dar lagay, tou phir, sirf mohabbat hai. Aur agar andha aitemaad ho, tou ishq.

Par insaan siyah aur safaid par nahi chalta. Insan tou dono ka milaap hai. Insan bhool hai. Insan tauba hai. Bas jab mohabbat ho, tou wujood ki chahat maan ke tauba karo. Aur jab ishq ho, tou uske imtehanon ke liye tayyar raho; sajde ki talwaar aur dua ki dhaal samait, datt jao. Kyunke jo tum kehte phiro ge, Khuda uska imtehan zaroor le ga. Ye tou sadiyon pehle bata diya tha Us ne. (Surah Ankabut, ayah 2-3)

Ishq ka pehla qadam tawakkul hota hai, yaani yaqeen. Aur har mushkil mai sabse ziada isi ka imtehan leta hai Khuda. Isi tarah tou wo munaafiqat ko haq se, aur wujood ko zaat se alag karke dikhata hai.

Kayi baar, tumhare ishq ko wujood lalkaare ga. Kayi baar tum wujood ki maan bhi lo ge. Lekin gir ke sambhalna hi imaan ka suboot hai. Ahista Ahista, tumhare wujood ko zaat zaroor mil jayegi.

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“Imaan, Umeed aur Mohabbat”

Pehle imaan phir imaan se umeed aur umeed se mohabbat.

Kahin parha tha ke muhabbat insan ko Khuda tak lejati hai- na mile tab bhi, mil jaye tab bhi. Lekin ye na bataya ke jab apni khud gharz se khud gharz mohabbaton mai bhi Khuda nazar anay lage, tou samajh jao ke khalqat nahi, Khaliq se dil jorr liya hai.

Kaaba ke darwazay pe bethe hum, ankhen kia poora wujood ashkbaar! Aur wujood ke har zarre se aik hi naam ki awaz aye, goya zindagi dour khari mazak urra rahi ho, ke bolo! Maang lo usay? Is se ziada Khuda ke aur kia kareeb hona? Lekin zaat aur zaban ne wujood ki aik na suni. Wohi multazim, wohi ansoo, wohi hum. Par naam na liya. Keh diya Khuda se ke jo Apko behtareen lagay wo ata karden. Ab maaddi cheezon ka kia? Koi farq nahi parta.

Shayad dil mai mohabbat Khuda hi daalta hai isi liye ehsas hota hai ke agar Khuda chahe tou aik nahi, das baar mohabbat chor den. Apne toote huay tukron aur jurri hui izzat ko le ke wahin ja bethen. Usi ke dar pe. Aur phir ro ro ke kahen, “sirf Allah, sirf Allah, sirf Allah!” Ab koi bulaaye zindagi ko tou hum bhi ankhon mai ankhen daal kar poochen, ke dekh, ay haqeer o na cheez, dekh! Yehi hai na wo imaan jiska tu ne imtehan lena tha? Ab jis imaan ki bina par hum saari dunya mai naak charhaye phirte hain, dekhen bhi tou sahi ke kia hai us imaan ki taaqat?!

Jab mohabbat sachi hoti hai tou Khuda se dour nahi le jati. Khuda hi ki taraf se tou dil mai utri hoti hai, kabhi azmaish tou kabhi sukun ban kar. Tou le le tu imtehan, jitna lena hai. Dekh lena, jeet hamesha imaan ki hi hogi. Chahe hanste muskurate ya kaleja kaat kar, hum imaan ko nahi haarne denge.

Ab zindagi hi nahi, mohabbat bhi dekhe gi, ke mohabbat ki kese jati hai.


Hello everyone!  I hope you liked that. It had been long since I wrote in Urdu so I personally enjoyed this post a lot! I would like to give a shout out to Shoaib whose Urdu prose series, one of my most favourite things ever written, is the major inspiration for the style of writing here (although this hasn’t even come close to his level).

Have a lovely day, week, month and life. Until next time! ^-^

YA RABB!

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Wrote this a while ago. Ignore the bad handwriting. The first line says “jaam-e-qalb-e-muztar”. Just so you know 😛 I feel like that is the most badly written. What can I say I tried haha. I hope you liked it, it was my first qata’a (nukton wala qaaf+ Touain+ A’ain) Wow look how badly I have failed at trying to sound cool with my qata’a writing :3


FOR PEOPLE WHO DO NOT UNDERSTAND URDU (And also for those who do):

I am really sorry I haven’t written a proper long post in so long. I actually am in the middle of a new “Dances With Insomnia” piece and it’s taking me some time, since Ramadan and all. But worry not, I am almost done and I am sure you will love it in sha Allah! It’s turning out pretty nicely. 🙂

Much love!
Maria

“!جان” (Know!)

تو اگر جان لیتا کہ خدا تیرے لئے کیا کچھ کرتا ہے
!تو سجدے میں ایسا گرتا کے مرنے کے بعد ہی اٹھایا جاتا

Kafan mai lipta hua tera chehra muskuraata; ke “Dekh! Dekh aye khuda! Mai Tere ehsaano ka kuch haq ada tou na karsaka lekin koshish mai saari zindagi bita di.”

Magar tu tou ghafil raha hai.

Hamesha se, aur hamesha ke liye. Khuda ne tujh ko ghaltiyon ka putla banaya, tujhe azmaane ke liye. Ye dekhne ke liye ke kab kab tu hazaaron cheekhti chillati awazon ke beech apni rooh ki awaz ko sun paaye ga. Un ehsaano ko yaad kar paaye ga, jo Wo tujh pe karta hai.

Wo chahta tou teri jahaalat dekh kar tujh ko is zameen mai mila deta, jo din raat Uske hukum se tere pairon ke neeche thehri bethi hai.

Wo chahta tou tera taghaful dekhta, aur aik awaz pe ye asmaan tujh par toot parta! Yehi asmaan, jisko tu raaton mai tanha beth ke ghanton takta hai. Yehi asmaan, jis ki muhabbat mai tu giriftaar hai; aur jiske Khaaliq se na-ashna.

Magar wo ye sab nahi karta… Kabhi tu ne iski waja jaani?

Aisa nahi ke tu Uske azaab ke qaabil nahi. Aisa nahi ke tu ne gunaah se khud ko paak rakha hai.

Aisa hargiz nahi ke tu Uski zaroorat hai. Uski tou koi zaroorat nahi, teri kia auqaat?

Tere ashraf-ul-makhlooqat hone ne tujhe intekhaab tou diya par shayad ab tera zameer bhi rota ho ke is intekhaab se acha tou bay-zubaan, bay-aqal hona tha- jis naymat ne tujh ko Allah se dour kiya tou us naymat ka wujood hi kyun kar hua?

Tou ab jaan le.

Jaan ke teri zaat ab tak kyun qayim hai. Jaan! Jaan ke tere hone ki waahid waja,
ALLAH ki mohabbat hai.

Jaan le, ke Wo tujhse pyaar na karta, tou teri auqaat bhi rait ke aik zarre se barh ke nahi.

Par Wo tujhse pyaar kyun karta hai?

Jab tere saare ganday khayalat o harkaat se waqif hai tou kese tujhe teri maa se bhi kayi gunah ziada chahta hai?

Kyun ke tere paas tauba hai. 

Ab di tou ye bhi Us hi zaat ne. Par saath mai is ko apnaane ka intekhaab bhi diya hai. Jo tu ne khud karna hai.

Aur is intekhaab ko karne ki hidayat bhi Wohi de ga, bas tu ne uski chah ko sambhaal kar rakhna hai.

Us chah ko sambhalnay ka khayal bhi Wohi dega. Phir akhir kia bach gaya tujh mai?

Tu maang.

Tere pas dua hai. Aur dua se tou Qadr badli jaati hai. Tou maang; ke Us ka khazaana kabhi kam nahi hota.

Par dua bhi akhir Wo hi sunay ga…

“Tou tum apne parwardigaar ki kon kon si naymat ko jhutlao ge?” – Surah Al-Rahmaan

Dil sajde mai mar jaane ko na chaahe, tou aur kia chaahe?

First ever Urdu poem: “GUM”

If you want to know my thoughts about this, go here, because when I typed them together with it, it became a really long post, and I wanna keep this simple and raw. Enjoy. I will be eagerly waiting for any sort of constructive criticism and feedback. 🙂

Paharon ke neeche se aik rasta nikalta hai
Jata hai jaane kahan, waadi se guzar kar
Samait lo, chalo, jo hai ourhna bichona
Saath chalte hain apna chota sa wujood liye huay

Wahin waadi ki thandi goud mai basera kar lainge
Yahan shehr ki masnooiyat mai kia rakha hai
Faqat khokle log, unki khokli baatain
Aur dunya ko paane ki sulagti hawis

Zara socho kitna khaalis hoga wahan sukoon
Jahan bas hum honge, aur khuda ki khalkat
Apne haathon se banayen gai apna chota sa ghar
Eentt,upar eentt, saath paseena bahaate

Socho tou apni asliyat mai haseen honge hum
Muattar saansain, nange paoun, hawa se bikhre baal
Aur us par laparwah hansi, goya pooche
Akhir kahan chupa rakha tha, khud ko sab se ab tak?

Har shaam dekhain ge, sooraj ko ufaq par
Jaate jaate jab wo zameen ko bosa daiga
Aur chashme ke gaate paani se karainge wuzu
Phir jis khuda ka ehsan, uska lakhon shukar

Tou chalo wahan jahan koi humain jaanta na ho
Kia pata qismat nayi zaat hi ata kar de…