“WUJOOD AUR ZAAT”

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Wujood ko tou sirf mohabbat karna ata hai. Ishq? Ishq tou zaat karti hai. Isi liye jab rooh Khuda ke paas jaye, tou wujood ko dunya mai chor ke jati hai. Kyunke wujood dunya ka hissa hai, yaheen bheja gaya, yaheen kaam aya aur yaheen mitti mai mil gaya. Hisab tou zaat ka hoga. Aur yoon, jo wujood ki chahaton ka ghulam hua, samjho wo nakaam thehra. Aur jis ne zaat paa li, usne ishq kiya. Aur yehi ishq usay Khuda ki mohabbat ka haqdaar bana deta hai.

Ye theek hai ke Khuda ke ilawa kisi se ishq nahi kiya ja sakta, lekin ye bhi sach hai ke agar insan dunya ki mohabbat Khuda ke ishq ke wajib karda usoolon aur aqaid se chaanne ya guzaarne ke baad kare; tou beshak Khuda us mohabbat ko bhi ishq jesa mazboot bana deta hai, aur ishq jesa sukun bakhsh. Gharz ye ke jab jab tumhe izterab mehsoos ho, tou samjho sirf mohabbat hai. Aur jab jab sukun milay, tou samajh jao ke ishq hai. Aur agar usay kho dene ka dar lagay, tou phir, sirf mohabbat hai. Aur agar andha aitemaad ho, tou ishq.

Par insaan siyah aur safaid par nahi chalta. Insan tou dono ka milaap hai. Insan bhool hai. Insan tauba hai. Bas jab mohabbat ho, tou wujood ki chahat maan ke tauba karo. Aur jab ishq ho, tou uske imtehanon ke liye tayyar raho; sajde ki talwaar aur dua ki dhaal samait, datt jao. Kyunke jo tum kehte phiro ge, Khuda uska imtehan zaroor le ga. Ye tou sadiyon pehle bata diya tha Us ne. (Surah Ankabut, ayah 2-3)

Ishq ka pehla qadam tawakkul hota hai, yaani yaqeen. Aur har mushkil mai sabse ziada isi ka imtehan leta hai Khuda. Isi tarah tou wo munaafiqat ko haq se, aur wujood ko zaat se alag karke dikhata hai.

Kayi baar, tumhare ishq ko wujood lalkaare ga. Kayi baar tum wujood ki maan bhi lo ge. Lekin gir ke sambhalna hi imaan ka suboot hai. Ahista Ahista, tumhare wujood ko zaat zaroor mil jayegi.

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“THE LEARNED MAN AND THE TREE”(DANCES WITH INSOMNIA #4)

THE LEARNED MAN

The becoming of the learned man is much like the growing of a tree.

For, as the soil has to be, before anything else, disturbed and dug up from all directions, so must he challenge his heart and destroy his ego, up until the point when he is empty and penetrable- his soul as hungry for his blossoming, as the soil from which the tree is to grow.

And then as the soil captures the seeds eagerly, so must his thirst be for gaining knowledge. Seed after seed, he should plant in his soul with no pride whatsoever over the knowledge he gains; for he knows that there are endless new seeds that could fall into his soil and endless words of wisdom that others have that he does not.

And as the signs of growth begin to appear outward, and he starts to become acknowledged for the wisdom he is gaining, by others and by his own self; he should take good care in keeping the pests of arrogance and impatience away from his plant. Because his only job that he has power over, is the watering of the plant; and that is the manifestation of his seeds. Much like how his knowledge is now to be used practically and his growth aided by good deeds. He is to now put others before himself and minimize his own needs and desires.

He should remember that he has no control over how much his plant grows and so he should never take measures of it. For the growth and measurement is the work of God, and every minute he stops to measure, is a minute gone without watering. And if he were to find that it is growing well, he would be captured by arrogance, and if he were to find that it has grown less than he hoped, he would become impatient and ungrateful; either way it will be his folly to forget that God tests you by giving, and God tests you by taking away and He alone knows how much you will outwardly blossom. So when you start quantifying the good that comes out of you, you interfere in God’s work and forget your own, thus ending up with nothing.

And then as his soul reaches the point at which he can give fruit, he should bow down and hang low his branches and humbly offer his fruit to the world. This fruit contains seeds for other plants of his sort to grow around him, but in a form that is more evolved than the seeds he had in his time of growth; for it is his own primitive knowledge but with the addition of his personal evolutionary adaptations that he went through in order to survive. Much like the fruit of the tree that withstood the harsh climate by adapting to it, and its seeds carry that forward; so shall the knowledge and wisdom he now gives to others be.

And remember that the tree never discriminates between people that come to it for fruit and shelter; so the learned man shall never turn away anyone who comes to him for aid. And the tree doesn’t withdraw its shelter from those who appear evil, it just shadows; so shall the learned man treat the supposed outlaws, the hopeless men that the world has rejected and sent away to rot. For as the evil man eats from the tree’s fruit, and sits in its shelter, his soul too, might blossom into a beautiful tree, and the once barren land shall be turned to green.

And what more shall you ask about the learned man, but this: He never stops looking for more knowledge and better seeds, even when he reaches the position to start giving fruit to others and spreading his knowledge, his roots reach deeper into the soil and stronger, searching far and wide with as much humility as the first time he came to learn. Searching for more and more and more wisdom and never letting pride touch him, because he knows that at any moment Allah commands “KUN” (BE!); “FAYAKUN” (AND IT IS). So as he gives fruit, he plants more seeds, and as the fruit is eaten he waters his new knowledge, and as his fruit grows, he digs up the soil again to renew himself.

DANCES WITH INSOMNIA #3- “PAIN”

What is pain? And more importantly, why is pain?

All the pain that you have ever felt- may it be as a child who could not get what he wanted or as one who was denied love or as one whose children left him forsaken at old age- all these different stages of pain, you separated and gave magnitudes to. Consequently, the reasons you arrived at, to understand why each particular suffering fell upon you; they were given stages and magnitudes too.

Because of this separation, you missed the larger and universal purpose of every single drop of pain that you tasted.

You see, they say that there can be no true goodness, beauty or gentleness within you if you don’t go through pain. As if the compassion and love you have developed for the world is credited to your suffering and all the nightmares that you had to live through. How can one thing so repelling be the foundation upon which you became beautiful? And more so, if you have conquered suffering by still staying gentle, isn’t that your own doing?

Pain does not come to you to make you beautiful or ugly. It does not have that power.

The sole purpose of all pain is to break you open so that your soul stands bare in front of the truth it has been seeking.
And at that moment, it is you who shall choose to embrace that truth and become wiser; or reject it and fall into bitterness and folly. 

This is why all goodness and all evil has a painful past. The ones who are strong enough to break their ego and look at the truth that their pain has brought before them are the ones who attain beauty and gentleness. But the ones who are too afraid of their nakedness and vulnerability immediately start to build new walls around themselves instead of understanding why the old ones were shattered.

So remember, when pain comes your way, do not be afraid of it and do not hide yourself thinking that you must not show your vulnerability. No one can see it without your consent. It is only between you and God until you become the one to go around in self-pity asking for people to praise you through your suffering. But even so, know that having a visible openness is better than having none at all, and the best of them is the openness you keep to yourself not desiring love and praise from any other except Him. This kind, even when shared with your most loved few, is selfless and pure.

And when you have learnt to deal this way with your suffering, look beyond it and see the truth that your walls were not letting you see.

In order to gain true knowledge and grasp the secrets of the universe, you have to be bare and vulnerable in your own self, your “Batin” but complete on the outside, the “Zahir”. This is what lovers of truth and wisdom have mastered. Rumi says, “You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens.” This means that there will come a point when you have allowed your suffering and pain to make you so utterly bare in the face of truth that you will cease to build any walls. You will no longer need pain to teach you how to learn but you will be your own teacher. And you will be grateful for all good or bad that comes your way.

DANCES WITH INSOMNIA- 2: “THE NATURE OF TIME”

And do not delude yourself; that time flows through you. For in reality, you flow through time. The ocean is never dependent upon the travellers that pass through it. There were millions before you, and there will be millions after.

Time always was and always will be. You are the one born and you will be the one to die. Time has no end or beginning. You in fact are mortal. So do not equate your mortality with time’s immortality. And do not mistake the time period you are aware of by measurement, for eternity.

In this knowledge, you must learn to never surrender to the giant tide of time in front of you. If your boat has swam towards it, it will swim away; but not before time is done with you. So be patient.

And when you come upon a kind wave, do not walk with pride and think yourself to be lord of the sea. You might feel in control of your boat but even so you shall never challenge time’s might; he is the proud one so let him be.

Your place is among the needy. And they do not run out of humility in times of ease; and gratefulness in times of hardships.

And never forget that even time is God’s slave. So submit in love to God and He will love you. And when He loves you, time will love you. Only then, will you become the one time treats with care. In the words of Iqbal:

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DANCES WITH INSOMNIA- 1: “GOOD AND BAD MEN”


There are equal amounts of goodness and evil in the world; as well as inside us. There is no such thing as a good or a bad man because there exist within him, the same amount of tendencies for each. Then how does one define a person doing right or wrong things?

Human beings are fluid, they are evolutionary. Much like time, they never stop changing. So every single action we take is a conscious choice between what is good and what is evil, according to the divine rules that have existed since before mankind was even created. And thus, at every moment we have the power to be “good” or “bad” or change from one to another.

Also, the reason I particularly mentioned the divine rules here is because had I not, I would have been implying that every one of us without shame, does what he thinks is right and that would have led to a world full of self-righteous fools and I didn’t want to be one.

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The post above is part of a new series I am starting, called “Dances With Insomnia”. I don’t think you know this but I have since the past year or two, become really interested in philosophy. Actually if you come to think of it, maybe philosophy was inside of me since the day I got my first conscious idea and I have just discovered it now? Okay never mind that. Basically this series is going to be composed of my philosophical theories- the ideas I have about human minds and hearts, and the nature of the universe.

Now these ideas or realizations, let me tell you, sometimes I reach in minutes, and sometimes, take me months of thinking. In either case, I find myself in a state of constant insomnia up until the case is “solved”. And not literal insomnia, but just this feeling of not being able to be calm. (That can surely lead to actual insomnia among other things. 😛 ) So to glorify the chaos that goes on in my head while in this state; I named this series “Dances With Insomnia”. 

I really hope you enjoy this part and the ones to come in this series. Cheers!