Dear old friend,
We finally meet once more. It has been good time since I last visited and you don’t look so well. Not to worry though because now that I am here I will take great care of you.
I see that you have had other guests in my absence who stayed for long. Even in moments when you did not want them one bit, they refused to leave. Despair, for instance; and fear. You actually seem surprised that they are not lurking in your corridors anymore. Perhaps that is the reason you welcomed me today as a long-forgotten acquaintance- all you have known is them. For months and months, everyday.
I am truly sorry, please understand, that I could not be with you earlier. Believe me I looked for you everywhere. I had lost my way but as Rumi puts it:
What you seek is seeking you.
And now I see that, love, you had lost yours too. I was wrong, I confess, in thinking that you did not want me because this whole time; the both of us were seeking the other with the same intensity and the same burning need to find our way back together.
What is gone is past so lose it in the distance. I am here now. Do not fret. Do not cry. And do not let me go, ever again.